thinking about trying something

had my annual checkup today. ended up talking to my doctor about the anxiety stuff.

she asked me a bunch of questions about sleep (bad), appetite (inconsistent), ability to focus (getting worse), and whether i'd ever considered medication.

i always said no before. i thought i should be able to handle this on my own. but i'm so tired of feeling like this.

she mentioned something called harmony. said it's newer, really effective for anxiety and stress management. said a lot of her patients have had good results.

i told her i'd think about it.

mike thinks i should try it. starryeyed77 says it's up to me but she'll support whatever i decide.

i don't know. i'm scared it'll change me. but also i'm scared of staying like this forever.